January 4th, 2009


You know what I said about crying?


I hardly ever cry. It's just something I don't do very often. I lock everything away in this deep dark twisted place and then something really small will happen and I will simply explode. I will cry for fifteen minutes or so about everything that is wrong and then I will suck it up and move on. It's not something that I don't enjoy doing, but I guess I'd just rather not be reminded about everything that is wrong. Does that make sense?

I NEVER cry over people that I have feelings for. Ever. If I ever have, it was maybe when I was thirteen. I'm not saying it's bad to cry over people; I just never do it. So of course, it is COMPLETELY reasonable (note the hint of sarcasm) that, over my seventeen-day long break, to cry not once, but TWICE, over a person. I don't cry over people; why the fuck is this the exception? I've had my heart broken before but I didn't cry.

I don't cry over people. But here I am, up for a third and final round.

        It tears out my heart
Do not cry over people
        Oh how you break me.

"My strength is sapping
My heartstrings are snapping"

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A grandmother pretends she doesn't know who you are on Halloween. -Erma Bombeck

Rest In Peace
My grandmother,
Diana Beaton
I love you.

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