January 20th, 2009



I do sincerely apologize for the rants.
God, I can't imagine how annoying I am.

But what can I say?
You know I am crazy.


"Oh, simple thing, where have you gone?
I'm getting old and I need something to rely on
So tell me when you're gonna let me in
I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin
So if you have a minute why don't we go
Talk about it somewhere only we know
This could be the end of everything
So why don't we go somewhere only we know
Somewhere only we know"

Somewhere Only We Know // Keane

Caps lock does not and cannot fully express the emotion embedded in my subject.

"I'm going to ask you this one time and one time only."

FIRST OF ALL, hooray for inaugurations!!! I really do think Katie's entry said it all but omg. Obama for the mother fuckin' win, right? Cassler cried at 12:05 today. And if everyone wasn't so damn loud, I would have been able to hear Obama's whole speech. But that is what youtube is for :) Plus, I will do as much inauguration ball watching tonight as possible.

Anyway, other than that, today WAS pretty depressing. Especially once sixth hour ended. I attacked Rob today for taking out the calculator. I don't think he is grasping the gravity of the situation but whatever. Well, not whatever, but you know. It's hard leaving this semester just because I know that I am one closer to graduation. It's not like next year I'm going to have another chance to have Mr. Martin or to be in the play. Even seeing Cassler and Ashlee make their list for 2010 yearbookers is really hard. I want to come back next year and do it again. I want to enforce the quarter picas and boss around a new staff. I want to change things and do them differently and just do it again.

I think the reason I am so damn attached to high school is because, well, it IS all I know. But more than that, I am, for the most part, content. And happy. Forced change is so terrifying. I don't really know how else to describe it.

So today went well, even in drama with my men <3 But Monday will be harddddddd. Oh it's going to be a bad day. What if mine and Rob's paths never cross? Oh, it will kill me. I can't think about it.

Oh and I found amazing song lyrics? Yep, they are great.

"Sometimes I wonder why
I'm so full of these endless rhymes
About the way I feel inside
I wish I could just get it right"

Sometimes (I Wish) // City and Colour
  • Current Music
    Hear Me // Kelly Clarkson

The one where Karley is uber emo <3


End of the semester. SAD. You know, in case I haven't gotten my point across.

Karla leaving. TEAR UP. It was actually super hard. Being at her house on Saturday made me realize everything that happened over the summer and how good she was to me. She's going to be missed a lottttt. But she'll love living out in California. I'm happy for her. She did it.

BEYONCE SINGING AT THE NEIGHBORHOOD BALL WHILE BARACK AND MICHELLE HAD THEIR FIRST DANCE AS FIRST COUPLE. CRYYYYYY. Literally. Tears came down. It was so beautiful. All the emotion from the day just came pouring out of me.

What a day. I need rest.

  • Current Music
    Heart In A Blender // Eve 6