September 21st, 2009


Oh well I guess we're gonna pretend

The crying log failed due to the fact that for some reason I no longer have control over my exploding emotions.

I know it was three or so times since the last entry (once on Thursday perhaps, and twice on Saturday?) Needless to say, I feel a little pathetic. Crying in that little Italian restaurant as I try to explain myself. It's like I open my mouth and tears come out. If I don't speak I can hold it back but the second I use real words I fall apart. And then afterwards I can't even say exactly what's wrong. I cried at dinner, that's what's wrong, but I don't wanna tell you that, just in case I start crying again. Fuck, my mind is such a mess lately.

Though all of me is really.

Time for lunch.
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