November 29th, 2009

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Number three

In this one, it WAS mine and Adam's five month anniversary, just like it had actually been earlier that day. We were in some big building with big empty windowed rooms. He was in one with a bunch of other people and I was in another just across the hall. He told me it was the best five months of his life (just like he actually did) and all of this other cutesy stuff. Then later, he came up to me and told me it was over and that he was basically bored with what was going on between us. And I was pissed because earlier he was just telling me how much he loved me. But after I thought about it, the anger subsided and I got really really upset. So I went and laid on the floor of that big empty room and cried. Just cried my eyes out, completely devastated over the fact that he, once again, didn't care that it was over.

When my mom woke me Friday morning, I was so scared, same as I always am after I have these dreams. It takes a second to realize that it didn't happen but I check my phone to look at my texts just in case. It's a horrible way to wake up and start my day. I just don't understand why all of a sudden this is happening. When I tell Adam about it, he tells me not to worry, that that would never happen. And I know that but whyyy. Why are these happening to mee? :(